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so you may be noticing that the colors have changed on the old site. well, there are 2 reasons for this, and they're kind of related, and i will tell you what they are.

the first one, which i realized last night. i use css style sheets for this site, meaning i can easily change the colors for the entire site whenever i damn well please. "but brian," you may ask, "why have you chosen red and green, which are traditionally considered christmas colors?" well, dear reader, let me tell you.

it snowed on monday and then again today. well today, i was outside having a cigarette and it was snowing and it was very pretty and suddenly "winter wonderland" popped into my head. and it made me feel all christmasy. so i went with this, and i tried to make myself get into the christmas spirit. and i did real well. in fact, the only thing keeping me from completely believing that it was late december was that it wasn't dark enough out, the mix of sunlight just didn't feel right.

so it was then that i hatched a plan. i am going to act like it is not march, but it is instead the middle of december. I will listen to christmas music, and get all happy nostalgic and change the colors of self-titled, and buy people presents and eat candy canes and hot cocoa and think christmas. This will all culminate on easter. now, i'm not very catholic as you may know, so the whole easter thing doesn't mean much to me. Christmas, however, means a lot. so instead of celebrating the resurrection of christ, i will celebrate his birth. and not for the presents, because i won't get any, but for the happy and warm and actually kinda sad nostalgic feeling that christmas brings me. and on sunday night, or perhaps saturday, since it is christmas eve, or maybe i'll make monday christmas... but that'd be weird as it's marathon monday. ANYWAY, one of those two days, i will have over whoever is around and wants to come, a christmas gathering. Not a party, but a chill, friendly, christmas gathering. With music, and it's a wonderful life, and mistletoe, and some eggnog and hot chocolate with baileys. I can't wait. and i excitedly told tara and darren about it and all they did was laugh at me and tell me i'm stupid. but whatever, i think it'll be fun. i love christmas and the way it makes me feel. I was listening to the Low christmas EP today, and "just like christmas" really made me feel like i was back at home on christmas eve listening to it. it's working, i'm so close. and shit, what the hell else to i have to do over easter break?

also, again with the low ep, "if you were born today (song for little baby jesus)" is such a stunning song. it is absolutely gorgeous. so moving, so powerful. i really really love it.

rehearsal was kinda fun tonight. at the end of it, we were running the second verse of "love the one you're with" over and over and over again because rich was learning the solo, and something moved within me. we were just kinda jamming on this one part over and over. so i jumped up on the table and started dancing and then spit water out at everyone and then threw water over the whole group and then ran around a bunch and picked up a desk and threw it. it was kinda like "ok, joke's over" at the plan show, but different. anyway, it was unbelievably fun, probably my new favorite rehearsal moment ever.

then i came home and watched survivor (which i had completely forgotten about, by the way) and then played a game of football. then i returned the roommette's ice cube tray and totally got yelled at. but you know what, people get pretty tense during the christmas season, it's ok. everyone's worrying about shopping and family and making dinner and making sure everyone gets along, it calms down. once christmas eve comes, everyone will be chill and down and remembering how great life and love and friends and family are and it will be nice.