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the ice of boston
i come out of hiding for one reason only: it's 1am and I'm really, really bored.
so yeah, i guess that's all i've got. december's been a blast. notable events include: playing poker at tony's one day with JJ, going to the statewide christmas party with katie, sitting at our table and then getting shit for being antisocial the next day, christmas and stuff, steve coming back from whichever european country he's in (i keep wanting to say belize and belgium, which are both horribly wrong), and err that's it? oh, i guess bostonians cafe fell in there, shit it HAS been a while since i've written.
the cafe was decent, it was the day of the 2 foot+ snowfall, so that made things fun. decent enough show and then the party which was pretty undecent. i think maybe i just have no reason to be in the mods. maybe it'd have been better if katie and i had more to work with than just paolo and dave. as it went, we just sat on the couch all night, i took a nap sometime. then we went upstairs to john's room and napped some more. then we ventured out into the freezing cold and 8 foot snow drifts and found our way home.
so we just had the christmas thing. i drove home, which was awful until i got past the exit for 84, at which point it got breezy. long valley pretty much sucks. i noticed this the most at thanksgiving, because like, i got there, and had nothing to do. the way it works in movies and shit is that you go home, go to a bar and reminisce and catch up with all your old friends. Well, i've successfully let all new jersey friendships deteriorate to nothing, so i've really got nothing going for me. not that i care, really. i mean, i should at some point catch up with rob chi and christ, springer, but really i could give a shit about everyone else, although awkward meetings with kate and aviva would be super fun i think. i don't think either of the robs are in jersey anymore, but i really would have no way of knowing. the only semi-tie i have to jersey is jude and he isn't even there anymore and i suck at keeping that friendship up. thought about calling him on christmas, but his number isn't in my new phone. i also thought about calling darren and ts since i think they are the only numbers i do have, but i didn't do that. i'm super awesome at thinking about doing things and then stopping the process right there.
so anyway yeah, jersey sucks. i feel bad because whenever i go down there now, i peace out right away. i mean, the family is great and all, but there's NOTHING to do and no reason for me to stick around.
and wow is it depressing. i don't think i wrote about it here, but at thanksgiving it was really funny. my grandma said something like "brian, when are you going to bring somone back for us to meet?" and i'm thinking to myself: "really?" i can't believe someone actually said that, i thought that was purely limited to fiction scenarios. i was floored. so now christmas, one cousin is getting married, another cousin is in a serious relationship, hell, even my sister has a boyfriend. and here i am, absolutely nothing has changed in a calendar year except i make some more money and work longer hours. the social peak of my week is monday night poker. the new year is coming up and i have shit to show for 2003. in an entire year, my life has not changed one bit, i have not progressed as a person, and have had nothing remarkable happen within my social life. i've bought more cds seen a couple of shows and a couple of movies and played a lot of poker. and i have no reason to think that any of this will change in 2004.
blah. i'm bored and i'm boring. i hate my job too much to look for a new one. i'm a horrible friend and terribly inconsiderate. i'm selfish and only selfishly selfless.
i made a dute dinner tonight, well not so much dinner as some chicken. it was supposed to be dinner, but when i threw the first cutlet down in the pan it was like insta-cooked and supper on fire, so i really dind't have much time for other things. seriously, the chicken was fully cooked in like 2 minutes. i just did simple cutlets in peanut oil, then took out the chicken and did a reduction with onion and garlic and orange juice. then threw in soy sauce and fresh lime juice right a the end. it was nice and tasty. i should have let the sauce cook longer and thicken some more, but i was wicked hungry. dunno what i'll make tomorrow, i like this cooking thing, as long as i can keep ingredients handy. we'll see about tomorrow, i'll probably just do a pizza or something.
still no plans for new year's. jin is having a party and i guess tony is going to one. i know katie won't be down for either, and really neither am i. i'm thinking we can maybe just cook a nice dinner with mike or whatever, then after that if we have some place to go, go there... otherwise just watch carson daly or something.
figure it can't be worse than last year, sitting at home alone. hmm, guess the oc was right, because that's pretty much how i've spent the entirety of 2003. two years ago was of course the bostonians office bust and i think the year before was scrabble in jersey with mom. year before that rick petillo's sister's husband's place. the point of all this is that i have really shitty new years. so hurray for 2004, here's to another god damn new year... maybe i should just go on a roof and drench myself in champagne. and then i can talk to gladys knight... it'll be awesome.